Memory 22: Ten Things That Makes My Heart Flutter

I finished watching Dream High Season 1 last year and until now, I'm still hooked with the story and especially the characters. One of my favorite pairs is Jingook (Hyun Shihyuk) and Go Hyemi. Even if they didn't end up together, I still ship this couple. Hihi. They are childhood friends; though separated, they know each other by heart. When they met again, it took them awhile to remember each other but when they did; they were inseparable. Many circumstances came their way -- family and school -- but still tried to be together.

At the end, Go Hyemi changed her heart because of the unfortunate events that occured in Song Samdong's life. She became protective of him as a friend that eventually led to falling in love and since Samdong developed his feelings for Hyemi from the beginning of the story, it wasn't a hard love story.

Samdong was really firm that he wanted Hyemi and he told Jingook right in the face. Jingoo decided not to involve Hyemi about his struggle with his father even if she offered a-shoulder-to-cry-on.

Anyway, I don't want to elaborate the 16-episode-long idol drama of Dream High. I just want to emphasize the relationship of a man and a woman together with the circumstances in their lives. 


So with that, let me show you the ten things that I liked with Jingook and Hyemi's relationship -- the memories...

TEN THINGS THAT MAKES MY HEART FLUTTER

1. Jingook gave clues to remind Hyemi about their childhood.

2. On the first episode, Jingook helped Hyemi to escape from the loan sharks. They went to a place near the river and from then on, it became a place where Hyemi can cry her heart out. Upon seeing Hyemi cry under his helmet, he gave it to her so she can cry whenever she felt any pain or struggle.

3. When an incident happened in Kirin Arts School and Song Sam Dong got hurt from saving Hyemi, Jingook comforted the guilty Hyemi. He cleaned Hyemi's hands full of blood while telling her that Sam Dong will be fine.

4. In one of their classes, Hyemi sang "Winter Child" and dedicated it to Jingook. In connection to number 1, Hyemi realized what Jingook was trying to tell her about the yogurt drink. She then remembered their childhood memories and dedicated the song that she sang to Jingook when they were still young.

5. In preparation for their fake showcase, Hyemi and Jingook paired up. One of the dance steps included a sexy lift and position. Sam Dong, who became jealous since he likes Hyemi, tried to push them away from each other upon seeing this sexy stance.

6. On their first few weeks in Kirin, the hand picked students had a hard time adjusting including Hyemi and Jingook. Prior to this scene, girls kept talking about Hyemi who's standing in front of them waiting for a bus. Jingook offered the free space on the bench to Hyemi and sat with him. He gave out the left earphone plug to Hyemi. When Hyemi realized that there was no music, she understood that it was to pretend that she's not hearing any mean words from detractors. Both of them started pretending that they're listening to music.

7. During Hyemi's vulnerable times, Jingook came to her side and comforted her. There was a time when they are in the brink of their relationship because of Jingook's commitment to his father. Hyemi was so mad at Jingook for ditching her on their meeting, not knowing that Jingook's father was about to send him out of the country. He came to Teacher Kang's house and asked her to talk. She saw defeat from Jingook's eyes and just let him lean on her shoulder and cry.

8. When Hyemi found out that when Jingook came home with bruises and wounds, he went  to save her from the loan sharks. She judged him to be a hoodlum at first but when she knew it was for her, she thought of an act of gratitude for Jingook. Jingook left his big bike at Teacher Kang's house. It was snowing hard so Hyemi pulled out umbrellas to cover Jingook's big bike. Jingook saw her and when one umbrella fell out, he took it and angled to cover Hyemi as a sign of gratitude for taking care of his big bike.

9. Other sweet moments from my favorite couple. Isn't it super sweet? I hope it happens in real life but of course, Suzy will really end up with Taecyeon. Hihi.

10. This, for me, is the sweetest thing ever!! Back hugs! :">

Well the reason why I wrote this is because I want my MR. RIGHT GUY to do these things for me. Well not everything but I want a guy who's occasionally sweet.

A guy who doesn't think reminiscing is cheesy, holds the umbrella for me, sings for me, gives me the sweetest back hug ever, kisses me while we're riding the ferris wheel, confides in me when he's feeling down, dances with me, protects me from bad people, shares his helmet with me, let's me cry when I can't endure the pain, makes me laugh, and takes care of me. I know it's very ideal but there's nothing wrong with imagining someone who can actually do these things for a girl. Of course, he should do it without knowing that the girl dreams for her guy to do these things -- definitely, a guy with sense.

In this generation, these traits or actions are very hard to find. There are more aggressive men than romantic ones. Call it cheesy, but I'm still rooting for romantic guys who value the sweet nothings that every girl appreciates. I want that kind of guy. :)

Anyway, I just thought about the person who's destined for me. Of course, I don't know him yet because God is still writing my life story -- that includes my lovelife. Hehehe. I hope those Dream High fanatics like me shares this same sentiment with me especially the girls. What do you think?? :)

Memory 1: Waves Of Pain (Blue Heart)

I wrote this two years ago after listening to some "emo" music. I was thinking of a dear friend and suddenly felt an urge to write about what I feel for him. Yes, I admired my friend and developed feelings for him. I liked him more than a friend and this was a product of my innermost feelings for him. I never had the courage to tell him right away. It took me two years before I finally gave my confession letter on our graduation day. Also, I think this would be a perfect reflection of me, growing up. I always boxed myself and never really risked anything. I was always afraid of something when I was young. I still have those fears but I think I can handle them better now. 

So here's a bit about my childhood and my admiration to a dear friend "blue heart."

Heart's laid on the palm of the man she adores, wishing he takes her into his arms and love her. But, that doesn't happen all the time; some things are not bound to happen. No matter how hard you push yourself, if he won't take you in, you cannot do anything about it anymore. 


A woman then unveils her mask and a face of a hurting child is revealed. Love caught her off guard again and again; there is nothing else she can do but break down. Despite everything, you will always see her smiling as though nothing happened, as if she never felt any pain. A face of a hurting child is kept once again as she puts back her mask and deceives everyone that surrounds her with an endearing smile.

Pain agonizing her each time she put up a face opposing her real self. It is against her will to be someone else but the world is pushing her to the limits. She is weak, too vulnerable to fight back. She has been battling with herself and another war is too much to bear. She draws strength from the mask she wears. This mysterious and powerful mask keeps her distant to all that surrounds her. The mask must be more than just a glitterati or odd one. Did she sell herself to the devil? Questions will only be questions unless someone answers it. 


Yowling with pain as she mentions the name of the one she loves brings a wave of pain in her heart, mind, soul and every bit of her. She surrenders the moment she speaks about him. There is no one else that removes that mask but him. The reason why she cannot win the battle within herself is because her heart is not with her, metaphorically. The man, who rejected her heart, is where she left it. She expects nothing in return for she is already satisfied with the rarest encounters she have with him. But, when will it come to an end? The waves of pain come like a snap of a finger. This fight will not end unless she takes one step forward and end it herself. 

Probably, she is confused by her own words. She is a battleground where she battles with her heart and mind. Her heart is where the child dwells, where the truth and pain hand-in-hand resides, the purest and truest of her. Her mind is where the mask overpowers her, cradling her superficial imaginings, disappointments and frustrations, the feelings she cannot suppress. The cure is within her heart. If she cannot find it, it may be the end of her.

Love is just one side of her and yet it takes her all in. How can love overpower her this way if there is no concrete reason at all? Everything she draws from abstraction. Is the man she speaks about only a product of her imaginations? What is real? What is unreal? I am now disoriented with her thoughts. With this, I give up. Would you take a chance and explore her story?